O.K,
I'm pretty sure I have a valid reason for having a lie in this morning,
tonight I'm going out with Amy and my boyfriend
James. We are going to celebrate me finishing college and Amy getting into college!
I woke up early, but forgetting I still had to make my culottes, I went back asleep, I just thought I would be wrecked going out tonight if I got up early.
When I eventually did get up, I realised I did have a lot to do!
So without wasting time, I had a quick breakfast and began to sew up the culottes.
When they were done I tried them on, and honestly they did not suit me!
So that was another thing to add to my to do list, Find Something To Wear!
My dad kindly offered to bring me to TK Maxx to see if they had anything nice to wear out!
So before I done that, I washed my hair, put on my tan and my fake nails, I was pretty much ready to go out, apart from my clothes and make-up.
But if I'm honest, I take so long to get ready, I could spend up to 3 hours doing hair and make-up!
When my tan was finally dry, myself, my sister and my dad went to TK Maxx.
I tired on about 4 outfits and nothing suited me, I was beginning to feel hopeless and honestly a bit down in the dumps, which usually happens when I try on clothes and they don't suit me.
But I have learnt to take a step back and look at the bigger picture, I told myself this always happens, and I allow myself to get upset, but there isn't much point, because it is not going to fix anything, it will just dampen the day and leave me in a horrible mood!
Dad then brought me to the local shopping centre, I went into 2 shops, River Island and Topshop. I went into them with a positive attitude and I didn't leave room for negativity. In River Island I found a lovely khaki asymmetrical dress that tied at the waist and so that is what I got.
Realistically at this point I should've went home to get ready, but no, Tanya needed her coffee.
I met James and we went for a coffee, Amy then came and met us in the coffee shop. Amy needed to go to Penny's (Primark) before we headed back to mine to get ready.
We eventually made it back to mine, so we started getting ready straight away, while we got ready James cooked up a vegetable stir fry.
As soon as I had my make-up done, my stomach started to get very sore, I suffer from a sensitive stomach and this happens quite a lot.
The worst part about it is, it starts up my anxiety, because I'm afraid to go anywhere when it does act up.
I took 2 tablets and prayed for it to go away, I honestly didn't want anything to ruin this night.
After about 2 hours of freaking out, it eased slightly and I just said lets go, because I knew if I stayed home any longer I was just going to get into my pyjamas and get into bed.
We had an amazing time when we went out, we danced so much and sang our hearts out!
All cocktails were only €5 for the whole night, I'm pretty sure we tried the whole menu, from Mojito's to Tokyo Iced Tea's. So as you can imagine we had a wild night, and honestly it was well deserved.
We took so many selfies in the full length mirror at our table, that it took up all the memory on my phone! (I'll insert some pictures at the end)
It really was an amazing night, I was so glad my stomach and anxiety didn't stop me from going out, because it has done in the past, a lot.
Looking back I am very proud of myself for not letting my weight get to me when I was shopping and most importantly, for not running away when my stomach got bad!
Today was definitely a success in the recovery department!
Onwards and Upwards!
Thank you for reading
Love,
Tanya
xxx
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